My First Dream

I had my first dream of Gretta, two nights ago. Well, my first good dream.

I have been praying and praying that I would dream of her, that I would experience what others have mentioned as being "real", being able to really feel her there.

I was dreaming for what seemed like all night. It was one of those dreams that takes you all over the place and doesn't make any sense really. There were people from different parts of my life in different places, you know, just one of those dreams that runs together and makes no real connections.

Anyway, I was talking in my dream to a group of people and there was a chair in front of me. Out of the corner of my eye I saw this little person climb unto the chair and as it did, she tapped me on my arm. I looked down at the chair and there she was. Gretta. She put her arms up to me and I picked her up. All the while I was thinking in my dream, "Please God, let this be the dream I've been praying for, where I can really feel her and smell her." Gretta put her arms around my neck and wrapped her little legs around my waste just like she used to do. I put my arms around her and held her close to me, stomach to stomach; I could feel her little tummy on me and her warmth and her little arms, I took a deep breath. I could smell her. I started to sob. I was sobbing in my dream, thanking God for letting this dream happen, I was just sobbing and sobbing and then I turned my face to Gretta and kissed her on the cheek and then she was gone.

My dream kept going as if that had never happened, just another strange dream that continued on into the night. I didn't see Gretta again, it was like it didn't happen, only when I woke up that morning, it was the first thing I remembered. I couldn't still feel her or smell her or anything like that, but I could remember.

Gretta wasn't much of a talker when she was alive, she was just sounding out words and only had a few important ones down like, "HEY!" "NO!" "MINE!" and "Cookie!" So she didn't say anything in the dream either. She didn't make a sound. It was like she was sent to me, she tapped me like, "HEY! Here I am, you've been waiting, right?" It was exactly what I have been begging God for, to hold her, smell her, feel her, and that is exactly what He gave me, nothing more.

Thank You Jesus, Thank You God.